today din went to school cuz of my stupid men's cramp..oh fuck..its must be due to last night of the mango..LOL...recently, many things has happened..and makes me realise that love isnt everyrhing in life..though we need love n a parnter in our life, but who can we trust will always be those closest one esp family..?without them to support or pull me out, i will never stand up firmly n forget him completely,,,right now,ronnie is only part of my life..a chapter of my life...there is still lots more chapter for me to write on..so i have to move on...now is JJ...indeed this rs is fast for both of us, and i bet alot of ppl will think that we wont last...but who cares..?cuz life is short, we goona explore more things..to me, this rs, is a new experience and a new chapter..i dont know how to handle this rs seriously, i need someone to guide me along..i m lost in the path of rs..i wan to feel loved n pampered once again..i might not be the perfect girl that i used to be when i am with ronnie, but i will try to put in whatever i can..i hope JJ wont hurt me anymore..i dun wan ani promises nor swears all i wan is a sincere heart n someone who will never leave me till the end..love me regardless of anything nor everything...this is what i always asked for.....

argh...my stomach pain pain PAIN..those cramps realli sucks...i hate that..but yet i still crave for more ice creams n chocolate...well..today i think i m having a better mood...i tend to eat alot..i eat shaker fries after 3 hrs later, went to carl junior and eat again..LOL..i am getting fat...but ONLY for today i will eat...hahas...anyway, i went to job interview today, and i hope i will be employed..i need job despearatly..holidays is coming..i need CASH...i need some shopping..come on...argh......